“We do not dare to classify or compare ourselves with some who commend themselves. When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise. We, however, will not boast beyond proper limits, but will confine our boasting to the sphere of service God himself has assigned to us, a sphere that also includes you.” - 2 Corinthians 10:12-13
Insecurity is the deadliest weapon the enemy uses, to destroy you with confusion and starve you of your worth. It is birthed out of our most desperate need to be loved AND fully known. Statistically speaking, an overwhelming majority of us are insecure in some way, shape or form. Whether it is with looks, wealth, influence, talent or popularity, we are constantly bombarded with lies that we are indeed not enough.
Most of us would not self identify as insecure. Actually, we are pretty secure in saying that we are not insecure. But our hearts and actions feature a different story.
We know insecurity by the fruit it bears: obsessive behavior, anxiety, jealousy, narcissism, self harm, envy, aggression and isolation.
However at first, it so innocently sprouts up from a small failure or feeling of rejection. Soon it becomes fertilized by a constant disappointment from failed perfection or living in the shadow of someone else’s standard. It eventually establishes roots and suffocates your heart with loneliness and incessant lack of confidence.
Our habitual response to insecurity, is to combat it with comparison to the world. We measure our feed against our followers, our output against our colleagues and our purpose against our peers. We compete as if there is not “enough” to go around, producing a scarcity mindset, where we replace the rich soil of a bountiful harvest with the dust of a desert wasteland.
“I am not loved enough. I will never be good enough. I don’t have enough skill. I am not cool enough. I am not heard enough.”
We credit our insecurities to our history and our hurts. We believe that they have more weight to our promise and purpose than the future God has already spoken over us.
We may think we are only demeaning ourselves in the process of insecurity but ultimately we take it out on humanity by avoiding our assignment. We leave the dead untouched and the asleep unmoved.
We go through seasons where our hearts run rampant with insecurity in which our purpose and influence undoubtedly cheapens in value. We mistake the mere sound of our voice as genuine influence and any significant output we produce as purpose. We chase security through the avenue of production. We connect doing “more” with purpose when in reality it is just a shadow of what could have been. We become so desperate in our need to be heard that we close our ears to hear what God is saying.
Influence is not purpose and purpose is not influence. Both however bring security when it starts with service.
[…the sphere of service God himself has assigned to us…]
Notice it says sphere of service, not sphere of influence, or a sphere of purpose. That’s because service is the condition to purpose and influence.
Service serves a purpose and that purpose is to serve. Service to the throne and service to others. Some would simplify it as Love God, Love People. But the greatest way we love God is by loving His people. So it’s always in season to be serving.
Service is humble but not passive. To harvest abundantly you must sow generously. We are not subjected to the service of the field, we are entrusted with the harvest of people that come from the plow.
Paul having lived in many seasons of service, can confidently write this because he knows that there is security in service. Your sphere of service is your assignment. It’s assigned by God to you. Therefore, no one can take if from you.
Your security comes with purpose but purpose first starts with identity. To be secure in purpose you must first be secure in your identity. Are you believing what you say about yourself or who others say you are? OR are you embedded with the truth of who God says you are? He came and conquered death so we could be free from it. You are an heir, conquerer and His child all wrapped in a beautifully breathed masterpiece.
You don’t have to compete when you are CHOSEN. You don’t need to impress when you are APPROVED. You don’t need to condemn when you are JUSTIFIED. We don’t do what we do for people to like us or to obtain mainstream influence. We do what we do to see people set free from the grips of death.
Participating in God’s Global Mission makes you a world changer even if you never travel the world. Do not desire what you perceive as a bigger, sexier or more prominent sphere. Comparing your sphere to your peers, only waters you down to a translucent vapor. You will lose all your splendor that God has endowed you with.
You are brilliantly distinct with elevated permanence in the eyes of our Father. Wherever you are right now, know that you are not there on accident you are there on assignment.
With Prayers and Love,
Travis (and Kyra) Gold
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